It’s a baby boy! :)

Yes, that’s right.. We’re having a boy!  That makes three boys for those of you counting. I am so excited about our precious boy!. I am 24 weeks along right now. My boy is kicking and moving all the time. Nothing that hurts though! Shaun felt him move for the first time the other night. What a blessing! As I reflect back on the circumstances of the past year and a half; I can’t help but to feel so blessed.

Although I feel undeserving, God has poured out His love on our family in recent times. It is so easy to feel down amidst trials. Loosing Riley was a hurt unlike any that I had ever experienced. I have lost my mother and father. I have lost grandparents, an uncle and friends. But no loss hurt, like loosing my own baby. It is wierd. I mean, I never saw my baby born. I never felt my baby move. I never held my baby. But I will assure you, that my baby was real. The love I felt and feel, for Riley is real. My baby was a person. No doubt!

Now, as I reflect on our joy of learning that I was pregnant last time, the pain (physically and emotionally) of loosing Riley, and the toll it took on my faith; I can’t help but to feel overjoyed. Looking back, although terrible and horrible, it seems as though God had a plan. **Go figure!**

I hate that fact that I never see His hand or His plans in my trials. But I love it when I can see His hand in our joys. Isn’t it funny, that joy is made so much sweeter buy past trials? Yet it is hard to see that when you are “in the midst.”

Anyway, all that to say; God is so good!  No, God is Awesome! He has blessed Shaun and I through the trail of loosing our baby, with a marriage stronger than ever before!  He has chosen, in His wisdom, the perfect timing to bless us with another baby, and He has chosen for that baby to be a baby boy. Our boy is healthy. I feel him kick and move everyday. My tummy is growing and I am loving every second of it. Do I have the aches and pains that come with pregnancy? Yes. But do I grumble or complain? NO WAY! I am blessed with these aches and pains. I am blessed with the horrible case of acid reflux that I had last night. I have nothing to complain about. There is only cause to rejoice! Praise God! Hallelujah! Thank you Lord for this! I find myself sitting alone and smiling like a fool and thinking of this sweet baby growing inside of me. I find myself amazed that as my belly grows bigger and bigger; so too, does the love and affection that my husband shows for me each day.

I love being pregnant! If I wasn’t so excited to meet my little boy, I would wish to be pregnant forever. There is no greater joy. (While very loving and accommodating during my pregnancy, I am not sure Shaun would share the same sentiment) But that’s ok. hehe. I am already finding myself feeling a bit sad thinking that I am more than 1/2 done with being pregnant. Isn’t that weird?

But I am also SO, SO excited to meet this baby boy! I have a countdown going and I only have 114 days until he is due! ONLY! I can’t wait to see him for the 1st time, to hold him. I can’t wait to introduce him to Brandon and Tyler. I can’t wait to watch him learn and discover, smile and coo, crawl and walk. I can’t wait! So, until then, my sweet baby.. Your mommy loves you so very much and I wait anxiously to meet you. Thank you for giving mommy such joy by moving and kicking each day. Keep it up little man. And as you grow in mommy’s belly, remember this - mommy’s ribs are not for kicking. See you soon!

Posted in Life in Idaho, Pregnancy, Thoughts by Mariah || 2 Comments